For the Writer’s Workshop this week, Mama Kat asked:
5. If you could have given yourself a snapshot five years ago of what your life is like now, what would the picture be of and how do you think you would have felt about it?
When I think back to my life five years ago the most obvious big difference was that I had just had BB six month ago and was still a little nervous about life as a mom of two – would the kids get along? Would they resent me for having to split my attention in two? Was I completely in over my head? I was also knee deep in diapers, breast feeding, strollers and all the baby things.
Five years later and there is no breastfeeding in my life, no diaper bags, no diapers, no strollers, no baby carriers, no boppies, no changing tables, no potty training timers: NO BABIES at all. Unless you count me first thing in the morning.
And those two kids I was worried about? Yeah sure they fight, probably every day. But they also laugh together every day and play super intricate make believe games together every day. They cuddle and wrestle and pick on their mother every day. They ignore bed time together every day and ask to watch tv or have a snack together every day. They are like the world’s cutest crime fighting duo if “crime” meant “bed time” or “that thing mom wants us to do” and it’s fantastic.
Sometimes I feel stretched thin in this busy life of mine – we all do – but stretched too far? Incapable of loving two wonderful children? Heart divided? Never. By now the knowledge that your heart will always stretch to accommodate the people in your life that need your love is common, fantastic, reassuring fact. It’s the best lesson I ever learned.