Yesterday we took MM to the beach – this is a pretty awesome thing to report, because I’ve been trying to get the three of us to the beach all summer. We went once awhile back in the beginning-ish of the summer but I had a sweet little visitor and thus never actually made it to the water. And so despite having a good time, it didn’t seem to really count. And what’s worse is we had found a beach we REALLY liked this summer. Ever since then, any day we’ve been free to go – thunderstorms. Oh yeah, seriously, EVERY time.
So yesterday, making it to the beach and swimming and having a fabulous time – it was a pretty big deal. I swam, I played in the sand, I helped MM look for fun rocks. I showed him what mud was. It was awesome. We also got to go with dh’s GOOD friend and friend’s lady friend which was pretty perfect timing because they are moving to Kansas in like two days. Seriously. Who KNOWS when we’ll see them again, basically. Which kinda stinks because this guy his like dh’s absolute bestie. His other bestie moved to Arizona a year ago. And now we’re talking about moving in a year or two ourselves. Which means moving away from MY besties and our families. AKA we’ll know basically nobody. But I’m still excited enough about the move that when dh commented yesterday in passing that the move was basically not as definite as I’d thought it was, that I got a little bummed out…
Anyway, the real point of this whole post (not that mentioning a good friend moving, and my thoughts on us moving, and reporting that We Made It To The Beach aren’t post worthy enough, because they are) but The Point is that despite feeling better about myself in a swimsuit than I have in years (the first year postpartum I kinda felt like Blob The Hog), I still felt weirdly let’s say Apologetic. As in, “I’m sorry beach-goers, that you are being forced to look at My Fat. Please be patient as I attempt to submerge my lower half into water with some semblance of dignity.” So while I’m not feeling as Freakishly Fat as I did a year ago, I’m still well aware that I’m Over Weight. That I still will not wear shorts – no way, no how. That I hate myself a little for getting this overweight.
Enter Jen @ Daily Mish Mash. Jen who feels more than a little perturbed by the fact that women in their 60’s apparently can look better in a bathing suit than she does at 33 (or I do at 25). Enter Jen who is feeling tired of not looking her best. (Enter me, who feels the same?) Enter Jen who is Doing Something About It. Seriously.
It’s all about realistic expectations but also about commitment. It’s about saying here on our blogs to our readers that We Want To Change (and then feeling obligated to stick with that need). That I don’t want to have to feel embarrassed when I wear a bathing suit. I don’t want to have to feel like an idiot when I say how much I weigh (yeah I won’t be saying that here just yet). I want to be able to take a picture without worrying about neck fat. Seriously. I want my body back. I don’t mean post baby – I mean post bad choices. I want to feel as attractive as my husband thinks I am. I want to know I’m doing the best I can.
So who’s with me? Who else wants to be looking fine by 2009? Any amazing Super Ladies out there already looking fine that want to throw me some pointers or cheer me on? I’m gonna warn you – I’m not an easy fix. I won’t go quietly. I love junk food. I love dessert. I am sedentary by nature. I’m not active. I don’t exercise. I have no idea where I’m going to find the motivation or moment to get in the 4 days of exercise Jen’s proposing. And I hope that if I manage to get pregnant in the middle of all of this, that it doesn’t deter me from reaching the goal anyway – I can always be looking fine and pregnant in 2009, too.
Here are the basic ground rules:
- I’m going to commit to eating smaller, healthier portions.
- I’m going to commit to working out at least 4 times a week.
- I’m going to commit to drinking more water. I have already begun this, but I plan to do better.
- I’m going to commit to getting to bed earlier. For me, this means no later than 11pm.
Like Jen @ Daily Mish Mash, I’m planning to weigh myself at the start and then once a week so I can keep track of pounds lost. I will post my progress weekly on my blog, along with any other tips and tricks I find as I go along.
And when we’re all said and done – celebs like Ryan Gosling and John Mayer will be wanting to put US on THEIR Friday Eye Candy List, am I right? Cause with a little coaxing and a little fine tuning, I know we’ll all be looking fine by 2009.