This morning my husband woke up at the butt crack of dawn (or like 6am or something, I don’t know, I wasn’t really awake) and left for his business trip, on the other side of the country in warm, sunny San Diego. Which I told him about 800 times is where The Zoo is, because having seen Madagascar 800 times in the past couple weeks, I’m an expert on these things. And no, I don’t imagine he’ll have any time to go to the Zoo. But if I were going to San Diego, that’s exactly where I’d want to go first. Obviously.
I think I’ve been pretty good about this whole thing, trying to focus on the positive like being able to hog the bed for a week, and stay up reading as late as I want, etc. I’ll be able to cook dinner whenever we’re hungry and won’t have to wait if dh is working late or something. But let’s be honest, this sucks. My husband is some kind of terrific and he really makes my day easier, every day, in a million ways. My sanity relies on him coming home at night, being able to veg out with him on the couch and watch our favorite shows, and vent to each other about our respective shitty days. If he were home right now we’d probably be planning some kind of terrific family adventure since we already have all our errands done. I will not be embarking on a similar adventure without him. I’m a tired cranky pregnant mother of a 2 year old. We’ll stay home and watch movies and eat meals and hope the day passes semi-quickly. And then we’ll do the same thing Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.
Basically, today might as well be Monday except it’s the worst, longest Monday in the world because dh won’t be home until so late Thursday night that it might as well be Friday morning. That’s my silver lining – when he does get home, it will be Friday. One quick day of work and then the most well needed weekend EVER. But it’s kind of a lame silver lining. I’m seriously dreading this week, while trying to remain positive, but I’m pregnant and hormonal so mostly I’m just dwelling on the negative and trying to refrain from eating my way through all 30 cookies that I baked for Game Night last night (okay so after the ones people ate, it’s probably like 20, but whatever) before noon.
Last night we got into a fight over like, nothing. And we realized after I finished sobbing like a baby that we were both tired and really not looking forward to this week. DH may be going to sunny California, but it’s not like it’s for fun. It’s for a Trade Show, which for Engineers is I guess like the 3rd circle of hell, because they are expected to socialize. Or something. I don’t know. All I’m hearing is warm, sunny California. Without me. I’d take that over cold, boring here pretty much any day. But point is, we had both been putting on brave faces for weeks since first hearing about this trip and last night we were DONE pretending. And I won’t pretend now. This sucks.
I will admit, that so far, we’re doing fine. But dude, it’s 10am. He’s only been gone for 3 hours. We’ll see how I’m doing at dinner tonight, or breakfast tomorrow. Then we’ll make a call as to whether or not I’ll escape from this week with my sanity. And yes, I know, it’s only a week. Some of you probably do this all the freaking time – military wives, I know. I could never be you. I’m not that strong. And also, we’ve only been married 2 years. We’ve never been apart this long since we started dating. This is huge for us. It’s a milestone. A sucky, awful stupid pointless milestone that I will go kicking and screaming through. Or I’ll be fine. We’ll see.
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11 responses to “He’s Leaving On a Jet Plane…”
@ Jen : I’m doing oaky – we’re going sledding with some friends today (like any second now) so that should be fun. Last night was pretty weird though, going to bed when “Daddy hasn’t even come home yet!”
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How are you holding up? I know I dread when my husband goes away and it’s usually just an overnight trip, not several nights. Hang in there – try to get out with MM even if it’s to the library or the mall to window shop. Friday will be here before you know it.
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@ Jen : I really do hope he has a good time – as much as I don’t like him being gone, the idea of him having an awful time does not make me feel better – he’d better be enjoying the heck out of San Diego as much as possible for my sake – because I totally would be if I were there! 😛
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Here’s the thing about anti-socializing engineers in San Diego: they’re still in San Diego. It’s beautiful, there’s lots to do, good restaurants, and they really don’t HAVE to socialize all that much if they don’t want to. So while DH might rather be there with you and MM, I doubt he’ll have a sucky time. There are way worse places to be.
We’ve had a few of these moments in our life too, where one of us has to travel for work at an unfortunate time and it opens up all these weird emotions between us. I can only say that the time will probably go faster than you expect, and that you’re right to concentrate on what’s GOOD about him not being around. That’s the only way you won’t totally resent him and life and everything in the world. 🙂
Good luck, sweetie.
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@ Jean : Seems to be some of that in the air, at least there was for me last night. I’m sure I’m stressed out about all kinds of things, but holding in my anxiety about him leaving seemed to push it over the edge. But now he’s gone and all that’s left to do is deal with it until he gets back. 🙂
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It’s gonna be OK I promise. I have been there done that with two little babies and the hubs gone for several weeks at a time. We’re all here for ya! It’s ok to be hormonal too…you have some really good excuses. 🙂
I also was hormonal and sobbing like a baby last night… maybe I was channeling you or something. I think I just had a small mental breakdown of a little of this and that and needed to explode.
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@ sues2u2 : I was thinking about that idea earlier actually – like making him pictures or something. I’ll have to try doing something when MM gets up from his nap today.
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Cry away! You might actually be surprised when you realize that it’s thursday & surprise, he’s home! But I’ve gotta admit, the week long trips are the worst. @ least if they’re gone for a month you can get into a groove on how things are done. One thing that helped me was to have my son & I do little things to show daddy when he got home.
Not quite the same but we’ll all be here for you I’m sure!
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@ Toastqueen : I’m feeling pretty strong right now but he called me about an hour ago from the airport and I seriously cried the second I heard his voice! I’m such a girl!
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Aw, I’m sorry.
Hopefully the week will fly by and absence will make the heart grow fonder! 🙂
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A friend of mine has started a great blog called “Beyond the Zoo” if your husband wants some other great options in San Diego but doesn’t have the time the zoo requires.
http://beyondthezoo.com/
It totally stinks when hubby is away!
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