Last night’s blog post inspired me to rethink the way I blog. It felt so refreshing to simply open up a new post and write what I was thinking and try to spin my ideas in a creative way and really say what I was feeling in this moment. A blog is a funny thing because it is both a diary and a public soap box of sorts. Am I an entertainer, providing material for your viewing pleasure or a journalist chronicling my thoughts for myself to look back on, as well as future generations of my family? I know it’s both – but sometimes, lately, I think I only worry about the first part, which doesn’t make a ton of sense. I’m not Dooce and I don’t need to hold myself accountable to you, my audience.
I’m not stating that from this moment on I will only write “diary” style entries with no memes – I’ve tried to limit myself to less memes in the past and it doesn’t work because I like memes. But sometimes I think I cut my thoughts short and limit my “posts per day” if you can conceive of such a thing, out of fear of being a bother – of bugging you guys too much or something. That’s absurd – this is my blog – if I have something to say, even if it’s god forbid another meme, where say it but here? I don’t expect any of you loyal readers to read every word I write – I know that I don’t always deliver the same amount of attention to your blogs, although I try. It’s like last week, on the In My Opinion video meme I recorded about whether society or the individual should be placed first – I think that my ‘healthy balance between the two’ has been skewed – for no real reason.
So what am I saying? I’m probably going to start writing more – because I don’t feel the need to limit my current level of memeing but I don’t think I’m doing nearly enough just journaling of my life. Last night’s post felt so real to me, so current and relevent to my soul and with so many big changes coming – a new baby and soon a new job for Dan and maybe a new home – I want to make sure I’m writing all this stuff down and getting my thoughts out there to look back on later, or maybe to share with my family someday – heck if I actually start writing stuff of worth I could even publish some of this stuff as a book someday. You know, it could happen.