Dan had his “written exam” today with Dream Company – what that means is that he headed out to the local library to meet with a local test proctor dude that Dream Company had mailed the written test to. Dan then took the test, which took about an hour, answering questions about math, science, problem solving, programming languages, etc. He said it was mostly easy – which means for a normal person it was probably kind of hard. Now we wait for the test proctor guy to mail the test back to Dream Company, then for Dream Company to “grade” the test and tell us what the next step will be (if there is a next step). I’m assuming the next step will be the in person interview, which he’ll have to fly out for. I say that I assume this is the next step, because I can’t imagine what other steps they could squeeze in – I’m really crossing my fingers for this – I can’t imagine how Dan could not be qualified at this point and not do well – I know he is a good candidate and I think we stand a pretty solid chance of him getting the job, but not knowing how many other people are applying and have made it this far, I can’t really say how big of a pool his is in at this point. We have no way of knowing.

We also have no way of knowing how soon it will be until we’ve heard from them, and if he gets an interview, how long it will be until then – and how soon after that he could get a job offer. I have no idea how much longer we will be living in this apartment (it could be indefinitely for all we know – or we could be moving very soon – no clue), how much longer I’ll be in this state, how much longer we’ll have our current health insurance and if we do change insurances – how complicated that will be. At this point there is really nothing for me to do, apart from continuing to help Dan job hunt in case Dream Company turns out to be Not Terribly Bright Company (i.e. choose not to hire him). I can no longer say I know where I will deliver this baby and which doctor will likely deliver it. I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep my upcoming doctor’s appointment in about 3 weeks.  The only thing I do know is that in less than 110 days I will be having a new baby, insurance or not, move or not, job or not. A very cute baby who will demand all my attention and change my life again, for the better, but changed. Everything is going to change – it’s just a question of how much else will change and how soon. Personally, I say, the sooner the better – but I think that’s just because the waiting is taking a toll on me. I need a new step to plan, I’m ready to continue the process, even if continuing means continuing to job hunt – I need to either move forward or move away from Dream Company as soon as possible – except I have no say over this so really I’m just saying that I’d like to.

I’d like to have the baby sooner – and I know that’s not a possibility – but wouldn’t it be great to just have the baby, have my adorable little baby and continue on my merry way to whatever lays before me? To be able to actually start losing weight seriously and adding more intensity to my workouts (I know I’ll have that 6 week recovery at least to contend with, but honestly on top of 110 days that’s really nothing much to me). I want to snuggle and change diapers and put the baby in cute little outfits and ooh and ahh and see what kind of sibling MM will be. Really I just want to take the next step in SOMETHING but there are no steps to take right now and it’s really frustrating but only in a vague over there kind of way. For the most part, I’m mostly just chilling out, doing my thing and enjoying the moments I can. Alright the boy is awake from his nap and we have TeePees to play with (pictures to come) and then grandparents to visit and probably Easter Eggs to paint. Ciao!